Quarantine week 1

Well we've got through the first week of quarantine and all I can say... sunday boredom is painful!

I've got a lot of uni stuff done although I really thought I'd have loads of time in this lockdown and so far my list of things to do has just got longer and longer! ...Loving all the live stream dance classes though, although I can't see the enthusiasm lasting more than a couple of months.

Knowing that this could go on for such a long time makes me wonder whether it's worth getting a 'normal' job for a year just to pay the Bills. Considering applying for the NEC nightingale. Its front line but I'd like to do more to help anyway? Don't want to risk my family tho. Tough decisions.

I watch the daily briefings every day and the 10pm news every night, people say it's bad for your mental health but I find knowing the statistics strangely calming.  Not knowing seems much worse... ironic when this BAPP course seems to be wholly based on 'not knowing' and dealing with it! This came up in the Module 3 skype this week.

Not a lot to update on the course however much I've got done. I think my approach it to try and get it 'complete' so I can keep adding more detail after and have time to focus on reading for the literature review in Mod 3.

Also worried that Mod 3 will come just as this situation is starting to change and we will all have to go into life as fast as we can to try and find stability again and wont have time for the 3rd module.


Above all of this I'm sad for the world. I'm in good spirit but the sad is like an ache that sits there in the background and doesn't leave. I'm extremely sad for Italy. That upsets me most for now but I know things will get worse here too soon. America looks like a dangerous place and Spain isnt coping either. All of the lonely isolated deaths breaks my heart and I cannot help but think of the doctors and nurses every night who have had to see death after death all day. Did anyone watch scrubs? Remember that episode where Dr cox lost all his patients for the day... this reminds me of that, but on a mass scale. I dont know how they are coping. They are Heroes.

And so are the unmentioned workers  supporting the front line workers. The ones that never knew they were vital until they were told they still need to go to work through this. My parents included. And the abuse they get from people who don't understand how they help, it's unfair. Spread love not hate!

Oh What a Week...

I cannot even begin to explain how crazy this week has been. Covid-19 what are you doing to us!

My family, in part, originates from Italy and for them I feel a huge sense of sadness. To surpass China in the total deaths and see the footage from inside their hospitals.. I just don't have the words. 

And that's the problem with this Blog as I don't have the words for so much. 

I am struggling with the idea that this course may continue 'uninterrupted' by corona virus...

The majority of the course members, myself included are self-employed and now have no income for what could be months. Some are parents, who now have children at home with them all day to take care of. Some are carers of the most vulnerable. Some already face family members getting severely ill... Many have reduced access to computers as family members are being asked to work from home meaning they need the house computer. And where do you find the funds to just buy a new laptop. The libraries are closed however the online resource is a blessing... 

This is a massively uncertain and stressful time for us as distance learners, who also do not qualify for any kind of maintenance loan like many students. I hate to write this as ultimately I'm in good health and right now that is the most important thing for everyone. I just think its naive to think we shall be able to continue as normal.

I had to get that down... but in other news I finally have sent off my draft for the MORE form... 22 pages of pure confusion right there, so will be very interested to receive feedback on that. And I have also completed the most basic outline of a proposal and my literature review so in all I think i'm in an ok place. I've pushed so hard this week as I know were going to face so many more challenges in the upcoming weeks so thought I should try and get ahead whilst I can. The BAPP Facebook group is such a huge help! Finally feels like were all getting through this together...but I would like to ad that the state of 'not knowing what the hell is going on' never leaves anyone..we just all feel it together.

Just because I cant get it out of my head, and it may be a small glance of lighthearted relief for some......

Covid-19 fits perfectly to Come on Eileen...

Your welcome.

I hope you enjoy that being stuck in your head for the remainder of this pandemic.